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I am arianne brown and this is my secondary LJ. I decided to set one up purely so I could moan about my weight on a daily basis, without boring the shit out of everyone. I have always struggled with my weight and don't get me wrong... I'm far from "fat fat"... but it's all about the way you percieve yourself though, isn't it? I want to look sexier than every other girl in the world... or at least on a par. I want a little pot belly, but not something that could be misconceived as a pregnant tummy. I want an "onion booty" with less cellulite. I want to show off my half sleeve without my upper arm wobbling. I want to keep my shakira hips, but I want the focus to be on how hot they are as opposed to how much fat is residing on the fuckers.

When I was young, i was tiny.
I hit puberty and became OBESE!
Then, due to a pinch of starvation and teen angst, I lost the weight.
I discovered alcohol and it piled back on.
I discovered drugs, I lost 3 stone in a year.
I went on the pill, moved back to my mum's, quit taking so many drugs AND met the perfect fucking boy and sadly, got content! I've almost out that 3 stone back on!
Tragic, druggie misery weight loss was so rewarding.
For the apst six months, I have been going to the gym at least once a week, walking to and from work, eating moderately healthy and what has it acheived? NOTHING.
I know muscle weighs more than fat. It doesnt fucking matter if I still FEEL fat.
I'm getting FED UP.
I HATE being a girl.
Having periods. Worrying about weight. Childbirth.

SO! I am upping my gym going to 3 times weekly MINIMUM!
Doing a THREE MONTH detox, beginning 1st March '07 and finishing on the 1st of June... the start of summer, by which time I can wear a bikini with confidence and walk around naked in front of my boyfriend without feeling like a fat fucking moose.

And tits... who needs tits? I'll buy my tits one day. Until then, I SIMPLY WANT TO LOOK HOT NAKED.

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